A new beginning......

As I am sitting here eating the rest of the M&Ms, I stop to think.....this is the end. I am starting a weight loss program on February 2nd. I have to weigh in and get lab work, then they will evaluate my BMI and tell me that I am fat (like I already didn't know this, I am NOT blind). Then I have to take classes regarding my health, I will talk to a nutritionist, and attend exercise classes for the next 8 months. Yes, 8 months!! I weigh in every 2 weeks. I am very nervous and excited about this. I really hope that I can be successful. So, wish me luck and say a small prayer for me. I must lose 50 pounds by September!!!! That's my high school reunion......motivation is really not my friend.

Frustration

Can you tell by the title how I am feeling???? Do you ever feel that things never work out to your favor?? I am feeling so frustrated right now. A lot of little things are just adding up to put me in a bad mood. I hate being in this mood too. Its not fair to my family either. Anyway, like I said, I have had a lot of little things that added up, but what really topped it off was hearing back from the bank. Let me explain.....

We were in the process of refinancing our house. We sent in all the paperwork, paid for the inspection, etc. Well, we bought our house in 2006 when the interest rates were really high like 7%. We always thought that in 5 or 6 years we would move to our "bigger" home, so we would just deal with the interest rate. Well, the economy took a plunge and thank the Lord neither one of our jobs has really been affected by the economy. So, we are very blessed both of us have a job. However, our dreams of moving or building a bigger home is put on hold. We don't know what the future will bring, so we aren't going to rock the boat right now. Anyway, we thought....we have excellent credit, when we bought the house we had quite of bit of equity in it, so why not refinance and save money for something later on. Like I said, we were in the process of refinancing to an interest rate of 4.6%. Wow!! Big difference from 7%. So, we had our house inspected. The BIG ball dropped......since the economy is so bad.....we lost equity in our home. We still owe less than what it's worth, but we lost a LOT of money. So, now the bank said that we could still refinancing, but we have to come up with like 5K at closing. Seriously??? So, it's a no go. John and I aren't willing to pay that for a home we don't want to be in for the rest of our lives. Pretty bummed. Actually pretty pissed. It's really not fair that we pay all our bills on time, we go out and work our butts off, and still we can't ever get a break. Maybe I should quit my job, have a million babies, and have all the taxpayers pay for my family.....just like I am doing now. Geez, so not fair.....

Winter wonderland

Well, I'm sad to say this, but yesterday was the very first day that Lily got to play outside in the snow. It just always seems that when it snows someone is sick or we are working. Yesterday, John and I were both off and decided to take the opportunity to take Lily outside in the snow. She LOVED it. We didn't stay out there long. Her poor little nose was getting so red and her gloves were too big which was making her hands cold. Anyway, I did get a few pictures.

Heading out the door

Lily's conversation with daddy, "oh WOW daddy! Snow!"

Showing mommy the snow

Say cheese!

It was SOOOO cold!!

Some call it a blessing....I call it a curse

So, you are probably wondering what I am talking about. I will tell you what my problem is......I can NOT find a bra that fits. Yes, I know, I really shouldn't be discussing this on the Internet. However, this is a huge problem for me. I have always been "blessed" in this area. In high school, I was a size 0 and wearing a C cup. However, as my weight increased, so has that area. When I was pregnant with Lily, I saw letters in the alphabet that I didn't think they made in bras. Yeah, I am being for real. So, almost 2 years after giving birth, the "girls" didn't really go down. I still have 8lbs left from Lily (it really feels like 50lbs though). So, I don't understand. I mean, if I got pregnant again now....geez, what new letters will they come up with. So, moral of my story, I can't find a bra. I went to Victoria Secret...spent $90 on the biggest bras they got in the store. I can technically wear them, but they aren't the most comfortable things in the world. I went to Wal-mart....found one that fits pretty good, but after being washed a couple of times, it was falling apart. I have look at all the major department stores too. So, my new solution before going through the humiliation of getting a bra made, is going to Victoria Secret online and getting the biggest size they got there (they have bigger sizes online, but not in the store.) So, I really hope this works.

So, if you ever wish to have bigger boobs....just think about it hard and long. Do you really want to go through what I am going through. I can't find a bra that fits, my lower back hurts a lot, and when you lay down on your back, you have a hard time breathing from the load that is on your chest. Yes, if I could afford a reduction....I would in a heartbeat!!!

Congratulations

Our besties Adam and Rachel Anderson had their baby yesterday! John, Lily, and I are very excited for them. We can't wait to meet the little guy!

Cale Ryan Anderson

Born January 4, 2011 at 3:41am

7lbs 14 oz 20 inches

Welcome to the world Baby Cale!