I can't believe it!!

I just can't believe it....really, I can't. My 10 wk old baby girl is teething. Yes, teething. I thought I had another month or so before I had to worry about this. I didn't see it coming. I feel like a terrible mother. About a wk and a half ago, Lily starting this drooling business. My mother in law, started telling me that she was cutting teeth. I thought to myself, there is no way. She is only 8 wks. (Remind you, she also told me that I was either burping her wrong or not enough b/c she kept spitting up a lot, while I kept telling her she had acid reflux. I was right on that). Anyway, I didn't really take her "suggestion" to heart. As the week went on, I noticed her trying to "eat" her hand more and more, along with her drooling. Again, my mother in law made the comment on Wednesday that she looked like she was cutting teeth. So, after she left, I got my pin light out to look in her mouth. I didn't see anything at all. So, I got out my book the doctor gave me for a reference. It told me I would find inflammation in her gums or white dots. I didn't see a thing. So, Thursday she was fussy, but she seem like she wanted the bottle more and more. So, I thought, she is going through a growth spurt. She didn't eat a whole lot with each bottle though, so I thought something else was going on. Again, I looked in her mouth and nothing. So, today, she was getting a little more fussy. She was not satisfied in anything we did for her. She wasn't eating like she has been. I only saw a couple of smiles from her, that is very unusual. So, again tonight, I looked in her mouth. Oh My!!! I found a white dot on each side of her mouth with some inflammation. I immediately started crying. My baby girl is growing up WAY too fast!! Plus, I felt so stupid because I wasn't getting the hints. Of course, I got out the teething rings and all that. Unfortuntely, Lily is still young and those things are too big for her mouth and she will grasp the teething rings, but taking it to her mouth and keeping it there is a whole different story. So, what we are doing is putting her pacifiers in the fridge to get cold and then putting it in her mouth. She LOVES it!!! Fortuntely, for us, she still enjoys her naps and bedtime. She is probably like her mommy....thinks everything will get better after a goodnight sleep. Gee...I hope so.

In other news, I go back to work on Monday. I'm actually getting better with the idea. I really hope they give me some good patients to ease my way back. I haven't been a "nurse" for 6 months. So, I'm feeling pretty nervous about going back. When I was 22 wks pregnant, I wasn't allowed to lift anything, so I was placed in a secretary position. Then, I had 10 wks of maternity leave. Man! I sure hope I remember all my passwords and stuff. I started having nightmares about work too. I had a dream the other night that it was 8:30 at night and I hadn't charted a word, I got a new admission and didn't have a thing done with that, and I had an IV to put in. To top it all off, my shift had ended at 7:30pm. All I could think about was getting home to see my daughter. I woke up thinking, "did I get all that stuff done?"

Anyway, please say a prayer or two for me....1) to give me strength while Lillian is teething 2) to be able to leave Lillian while I'm at work (I'm very very nervous about it...it's a long story and I don't have time to explain).

Well, I have some new pics of Lillian, but it's late and I haven't downloaded them yet. So, I will share them another day.