First, there is no baby yet. My last doctor's appointment on Thursday was very disappointing. I had not progressed any. I was so upset. I cried all the way home. All last week, all I did was walk, I was so active around the house (my house has never been cleaner), I have done all those things that is supposed to induce labor. Yeah, right....done of those things work. Last week, I was just starting to become miserable. It just hit me all of a sudden too. I was doing fine until last Tuesday. Anyway, to make a long story short....no baby yet. So, I decided to go back to work on Friday since there was no progress. Friday was absolutely the worst day. To be honest, work was not bad, but I was hurting so bad. Not really contractions, but I had the worst back pain in the world. The pain was radiating down my legs, I had so much pressure in my pelvic area too. I had the hardest time walking. I don't know if she was just on a nerve or how she was laying, but I seriously thought I was going to die. I thought numerous times to call the OB unit and talk to one of the nurses there. However, I didn't want to bother them b/c they were calling us for help....so I knew they were busy. Anyway, Friday night, I didn't sleep at all. I was still having that pain. Then Saturday the pain was gone when I woke up, but came back towards the end of the night. Sunday, I was supposed to work, but I was put on call (I was so happy that they did b/c I lost the rest of my mucous plug and I was really tired). Now I am on Maternity leave....I am not going back this time. So, now I am waiting on Miss Lillian to come.
Anyway, at my last doctor's appointment, the doctor pretty much gave me a lecture on evidence based practice on how inducing labor to a first time moms is not healthy for mom or baby.......pretty much all I heard was blah, blah, blah. I really didn't care at that point. I was too upset. All I know is that I'm going to have a big baby and more than likely she will be delivered via c-section. Again, that is fine, but let's schedule the thing then. Right now, I'm an emotional wreck. See, my older sister is getting married May 16th in Seattle, WA. First, I'm upset b/c I can't go see my sister get married....I won't be able to be in any of the family photos and I won't get to see anything in person. That upsets me. Then, the doctor does not plan on doing anything until after I pass my due date, which is Sunday, May 10th. Fine, if I get a c-section they won't schedule it until May 14th or May 15th, which all of my family will be in Seattle. That makes me so so upset. I want my family there or at least on their way when I have my baby. So, you can see I'm just an emotional wreck.
I'm keeping in mind that my mom gave birth to all of her children on her due date. Which is actually pretty impressive. My sister gave birth to my nephew 2 days before her due date. So, I am just holding out....thinking maybe this is a family thing.....we all have our children really close to our due dates. Wishful thinking anyway.
My next appointment is this Thursday. Hopefully, I won't even make it to then. However, if I do, I really hope I hear some good news that I am progressing. I keep telling everyone to think good thoughts for me!! I'll post some pics of my huge belly soon.
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